I've been doing great lately! I am okay with who I am right now, who our family is right now, where we're going...but a comment was said to me yesterday that rocked my solid world. Some of you know that I desperately would like to conceive, deliver and raise our baby girl. Recently life has been so good, that I thought I didn't want anymore children, even a girl. My boys are sooooo great! Who could ask for more? All that changed yesterday when my sister in law delivered her baby girl, Allie. Allie is coming on the back end of 9 boy grandchildren. That's gonna make for interesting family get togethers. I had an older girl cousin, but I was smack in the middle of 6 boys. Ya, we never played Barbies, house, tea...it was always building forts, tag/tackle football, baseball, kick ball, and Army. Maybe that's why I'm a good momma to boys...
Anyway, back to my point or points. My mother in law called to let us know Baby was here. Which I'm so happy, really, for them! Please don't misunderstand. My mother in law said, "I finally got my little red-headed Granddaughter." Suddenly, my face flushed with emotion. We quickly ended the conversation after that, and I pulled myself together. Brett came home and I told him that my heart had an ache today. I explained and then suddenly the tears came. The tears came from the unknown, will we have more children, will we have a girl. And yes, I still want a girl. No more denying or sweeping it under the table. Yes, I would like to have a little mini-me with curls and red hair, which is probably why I was so offended by my mother in law's comment. So, the prayers are being put in again. 2years from now, I would like to conceive a baby girl. And before you go thinking I can't choose what I'll have, just get rid of that thought or don't speak that for me. Besides my grandmother passed away before I was born, and she told my mom that she wanted a red-headed, freckled face little girl. Hmm...how'd that work out for her? She watches me from heaven!
So, that's on my list of don't says....don't tell me I can't have a girl or pray for one...The Lord is in control and I keep this issue in his hands.
Just thought of another don't say: If your dog barks at me, my baby and nips my other child, don't say She's never done that before after and before you apologize. Makes it sound like my boys and I have done something to provoke the dog. Which we didn't!! Maybe the dog smelled our dogs on us, but regardless...it was scary!
Now you're in the know of what not to says! Just looking out for you...ha!